I dont want to let you go but it hurts my hands to hold the rope.

Months have passed and I have failed to update on a regular basis. I think it's because I've been writing much more in my personal journals and I have yet to really sit down and churn these experiences and days into something I would like to share with the masses.

Seattle is great. I really feel at home here and the Fall has shown up right on time and Meshuggah is in constant rotation.

I have been painting and drawing a lot recently and in the past months I feel like I have sparked that flame that I used to have artistically. Instead of listening to the voices outside of my head I have turned inwards and in the form of true artistry I am listening to the creative voices in my head and following my true intuition. I'm quitting my job at Apple and moving on to other chapters in my life.

Below is one selection of personal writings that I feel explain a good bit about what is going on in my daily life. Please read, but please read with an open mind on many of the things I will talk about. I will post follow-up entries to fully explain most of my writings. Teasers is all.

Aug3009

"...more and more have I been thinking about quitting my job. I almost feel that this is the test(s) that I have at this juncture in life. There is an inner guidance that I now understand is the symbiotic parter that I will have at my side through the res of my life. Wow. So that in itself says that One; that yes, there is an opposite of me because for every action there is a reaction. The reaction is me. Me writing, me walking, me talking. But I am the radiation that is visible only to the creator. And Two; the creator is the energy that accompanies all of us and resides in the third eye. The native life there in the spirit realm and that time and places physical abundance of love and knowledge, that...that is the action. We are a FILTER."

This is just a quick insight into my life here. There will be much more discussed and documented, but for now I feel that the excerpt above is a wonderful start.

Consume to Produce.

Maybe I'll never see you again.

Each morning that I wake up I crack open this deck of cards that explain each chakra and ways to promote physical and emotional awareness.  There are different yoga positions that you engage in for a few moments and phrases that will stay with you during the day.  I've started to turning that act of going to bed a more sacred act as of late.  Each night I will write before going to bed, and then I read one of the cards that I have.  I found that doing these things help me out with remembering my dreams at night.  Oh yeah, and not being ultra baked helps too.

My hair is getting long as hell and I cant wait for the summer vacation I will have in Atlanta.  Im not sure how both my long hair and summer vacations come together but oh well fuck it.

I found an interesting website about what Black Holes would possibly look like if we ever attempted to go inside one.  

For the first time in 2 months I am officially out of weed.  

Rearrangements

Wow it has been a while since i have written to you.  Well in the mean time I managed to almost burn this apartment complex down to the ground, Completely rearranged my place, found a really nice home stereo system, and managed to start cooking a lot of different foods every night.  

Mimi and I were having a little arts and crafts day last week and we were making clay beads and other assorted pieces of clay art!  We got pretty toasted and we were video chattin up the interwebs with my friends in IRR and all of the sudden I realized there was a fire in my oven.  Well, long story short, my place filled up with smoke like 420 and I was convinced that the Fire Department was coming.  All was well though, nothing happened now my apartment will forever smell like burning plastic.  

I was cruising Craigslist for a few days and finally came across a really cool Home Stereo system straight out of the early 90s for 50 bucks!  I drove down to Tacoma and picked it up the other morning.  I smoked a splif down there and didn't realize how heavy this son of a bitch was.  No Fun.  Speaking of FUN. Go check out the band called FUN.  If you liked The Format then this band is for you!  Its basically the members of The Format that decided to stay together and continue to create dope ass music.  Now I need to go buy a new needle or cartridge for the record player today and I am set.

I've really gotten a kick out of cooking different types of food recently.  Each night is like Iron Chef in my kitchen.  I get wild on experimenting with different vegetables.  I have pretty much cut red meat out of my diet and I can tell that I feel better and that I am loosing a little bit of weight.  Chicken will always be a thorn in my side, I just love it too much.  I need to find a place to garden and then I am set.  Red Peppers, green peppers, squash, red and white onions, carrots and sprouts, mmmmmmmmmm......

I MISS THE HELL OUT OF THIS LITTLE DUDE, LOVE YOU FREEDOM

Playlist:

El Grupo Nuevo de Omar Rodriguez Lopez - Cryptomnesia

Earl Greyhound - Soft Targets

MewithoutYou - It's All Crazy! It's All False! It's All a Dream! It's Alright

Roll a splif for the way down

Just another wonderful morning

What a beautiful day it is here in Seattle.  A crisp 51 degrees and it will be getting to 71 today.  I have to work all afternoon and night but I've got my trusty sidekick known as maryjane that is always by my side.  Yesterday was a fun day being high and all. I will have to admit I felt like I could just walk around with a bowl and just fire it up here.  Everyone was stoned.

Started my day by listening to the new Irreversible track on their myspace.  I must say, it was awesome to hear a new sound from them that I have yet to have the opprutnity to hear.  The vocals demanded to be paid attention to as did the lows.  Cant wait to finally see them play live soon.

Off to work.

I have a feeling this weekend will be extra special with all of the good vibes I am receiving 

Playlist

Earth - Pentastar: In the style of demons

God Is An Astronaut: The end of the beginning 

ISIS - Wavering Radiant

National Record Store Day

I woke up early today so I could get a good crack at buying some good vinyl records today at Easy Street Records.  There are about 1000 Record Stores across the country that are involved in preserving the culture of purchasing good music and good prices from good people.  There are in-store preformances at all of the record stores in Seattle and Wolves In The Throne Room are closing out the days activites at 9:00 with a free show. Amputechture

I got some good finds this morning, check them out:

1.  Godflesh - ST

2.  Old Man Gloom - Seminar II

3.  Om - Pilgrimage

4.  The Mars Volta - Amputechture

5.  Torche - Meanderthal

6.  Russian Circles - Station

7.  Russian Circles and These Arms Are Snakes Split

8. Taking Back Sunday - Carpathia EP

Going out and exploring some places I've yet to check out today.  Portugal. The Man played here two nights ago for about 2 hours and although I have seen them twice before this time was better than all because it was like a home show for them.  Everyone at this show seemed to know all the members of the band and were heckling them on stage.  They had two 15 to 20 minute jams during the set and of course my head was like a kite so it was even better.  

"Computers run with the soul"

Playlist:

Manchester - Mean Everything To Nothing

Deltron 3030 - Deltron 3030

Doomriders - Black Thunder

Radiant Levels Of Communication

Wow.  the past few days have been full of surprises and neat things to do which is why I haven't updated in a few days.  I guess i will work in chronological order of the most recent happenings in life.

The other day I walked outside to see these two crows dive bombing a tree next to my car.  I looked up at them to see what they were fucking with and all of the sudden I saw it.  Two North American Bald Eagles were perched atop the ancient Evergreen and looking out at Puget Sound, not giving a shit about the two crows being a nuisance to them.  I didn't even get in the car to go to work for about 5 minutes.  I was trying to call everyone back home to project the scene that I saw 3,000 miles back home so that they could live the moment too.  This distance between us is becoming even more apparent now that I am truly settled in and living in Seattle.  

Another story.

There is a beach near my home here called Discovery Beach and it is the end of the Continental Land and outlooks to the Olympic Mountains.  Mimi and I went and renamed it to Discover Your Treasure Beach.  We found so many cool things like shells and stones while we were there.  I found this perfect Walking Stick that I will start carving things into it and painting it.  There is another called Golden Gardens that we went to with a few other people and cooked out and had a fire on the beach going.  Total scene out of a movie.

Last night.

I had my first psychedelic experience in Seattle last night.  The plant showed me how to express my knowledge to others.  I was, to say, leading the way into the path of knowledge.  Very uplifting if I may so my self.  The full moon is full effect by the way.

So I have been reading a good bit more and recently I have been enjoying "Breaking Open The Head", by Daniel Pinchbeck and I have been seeing some very important and beautiful messages in the writings.  One quote that sticks out in my head for sure was Henry Millers, "The goal of life is not to process power, but rather to radiate it".  I am actively seeking new forms of creation in my life and the first way I will project my self to others will be in the form of music.  And I know inside I possess these skill and vision of communication, but I have been too lazy to seek a form of expression in music.  So with out my initiative in trying to radiate the music never will come out right.  I am now just going with it and letting 'it", what ever that may be, to just let me be a filter to its waves and energy and give it a place to surge from.  

I AM A FILTER

Playlist:

ISIS - "Wavering Radiant" 

Weezer - "The Blue Album"

mewithoutYou - Catch Us For The Foxes"

In it.

One month ago today I arrived in Seattle.

My life changed the moment I left Atlanta

I wouldn't have changed one thing if I could

If you could only see how happy I am.